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I thought I would be smart and move my car last night so i could move it back this morning when street cleaning ended, so I would have a spot all week. I looked a half an hour for parking last night but the spot I found seemed all too perfect. The street cleaning was on Fridays, and it had a 2-hour violation sign starting at 9 AM. So as long as i moved the car by 11, it should have been fine. The street cleaning on the street I wanted to move it back to was ending at 11, so it seemed perfect.

But little did I know…..

There was also a NO STOPPING tow away from 7-9 AM. I just called the police, and two tow companies before I found my car. Now I have to pay $148 for the impound fee, on top of a $30 dollar 2 hour parking violation ticket i got on my first day parking here….

Overall, I don’t want to keep my car here unless my friend finds monthly parking information for me or my asthma gets me a handicap sign (in which case my mom would have to getan application, send over, I’d have to send back for a doctor’s signature, and then send out for approval by DMV).

I was so angry this morning at myself, and I wanted to really just yell out loud but so I wouldn’t make a scene, I just let my heart just twist and cringe. I asked God why, and I believe it’s obviously got something to do with taking responsibility, being more aware, and perhaps not keeping my car here anymore. Perhaps He doesn’t want me to drive somewhere and get into an accident? I don’t know… I’m just still very angry and I have yet to tell my parents.

I told them about me losing $60 in three twenties before, and my mom started yelling at me, but my dad said “at least he was honest; we should praise him for his honesty because he knew we would still be angry with him and shared anyway.” Then I told them about my $30 2-hour violation ticket, and my mom wasn’t angry because I was honest. She said that “we expected at least a ticket or two, so don’t worry, and just keep trying to find a monthly parking permit.”

My parents said they TRUSTED me before I went off to college this time around, and I feel like a betrayed all of that with just a simple reading error.

Honesty, though, above all costs.

Psalm 25:21

May integrity and uprightness protect me,

because my hope is in you.

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Hebrews 11

…32And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. 35Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. 36Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. 37They were stoned[6] ; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated– 38the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

Am I one or going to be one of these types of men? Chosen by God to do extraordinary things and live by faith? I hope so, and I would be honored to be thought of as commendable and more worthy than the world could ever appreciate or see. I am a child of God, but am I one of these men?

Hebrews 12

God Disciplines His Sons

1Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

4In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:

“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,

and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,

6because the Lord disciplines those he loves,

and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.”[1]

7Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

12Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 13″Make level paths for your feet,”[2] so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.

I should bear with it, and see that this is none other than God encouraging me through the passage that Brian told me I should read. Amazing grace.

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