waking up

I can’t update because I have no internet. I’m at Relaxtation right now. But rest assured, your buddy Warren is doing well! I got a membership to 24 Hour Fitness and James and Robert workout with me. It’s intense. I’m sore. I’m determined.

For all future reference, my mailing address is now:

Warren Lain

11701 Texas Ave.

Apt. #301

Los Angeles, CA 90025

I miss everyone from home… can’t wait until I go back up north after Navajo!

I didn’t realize how long it took to pack…

It’s light out now!

Happy Birthday James! WOOOOOOOOOOOO Anarkali was gooooood.

[01:47:51 PM] warjianrumoelliu: what prayer thing

[01:47:57 PM] The Aznchef: Well you see

[01:47:59 PM] The Aznchef: at Church

[01:48:02 PM] The Aznchef: we pray for people

[01:48:07 PM] warjianrumoelliu: oh wow

[01:48:08 PM] warjianrumoelliu: awesome

[01:48:08 PM] The Aznchef: So I’m going to ask them to pray for you too

[01:48:13 PM] The Aznchef: So I don’t have to

[01:48:14 PM] The Aznchef: LOL

[01:48:16 PM] warjianrumoelliu: HAHAHAHA

So far, that was the hardest night of studying I have gone through yet. I felt so weird today after the final, I felt like throwing up. I did pretty well, though… I knew all the stuff. Just depends on how well I wrote my essays.

Final 1 out of 2: over.

Sigh… when school is over, I move in, and all that stuff transpires, I will feel like a big thing is lifted off me. I know it will be lifted. This weekend has been an uplifting one — freedom in a safe place and surrender to a safe God is truly coursing through my veins.

And something to the tune of what Moe told me tonight that really applies:

I serve God, I revere God, but most of all, I need God to get me through my life.

I think we often forget what it means to live by grace. So often am I caught in my stress, situations beyond or within my control that are just overwhelming, my fears and insecurities that I just forget what it means to have true life. I’m sure this is nothing new to you all, but there is this idea of God’s beauty I was contemplating on recently. He is so beautiful, so glorious, so worthy of affection — that love is demanded from your soul. The kind of love that is so blind… you can only see Him and nothing else. You can’t see your frustrations or struggles, you can’t see mountains you can’t move, but you only see Him. I long to be in His presence… I think that’s what it means for me. Where you forget everything, even who you are… just being there face to face.

For some reason, I have the desire to post this.

Have you ever thought about something, and then another thought comes racing in to your brain? Then another, and another, each related to the next by one common factor? Pretty soon you wind up thinking about something completely different. Have you ever done that? I bet you have… but anyway, have you paused to think about that stream of consciousness and how it came about? And then, have you paused to think about how you paused to think about the original stream? And, have you thought about writing about how you paused to think about pausing to think about a stream of thought?

“You have a dizzying intellect.” -Westley of The Princess Bride

In the words of Jesus: “It is finished.” I don’t know if I can say I did the same quality job He did, though :).

Last night, after feeling stressed, I just decided to shower for as long as possible. I wound up praying for a good 5-10 minutes… and it was refreshing in all senses. I was singing “As the Deer” to myself as tears mixed with shower-water. How cleansing.

That is my bit of raw Warren for the week. I feel better now.

I feel so beat-up. Everything on all sides is crushing me. I am just a little complainer and a baby, I know, but still, I am feeling truly stressed for the first time in months.

Morning prayer today was really great even though I only slept two hours. Only good things can happen when you spend 20 minutes talking to God… I need Him to follow through.

Oh man… UNITED LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!